Friday, November 20, 2009
Tuesday, November 10, 2009
Thoughts so far
Hey,
So things are looking too good right now. I am pretty broke, I havent lost any weight, and I am not doing to well in school. My midterms came back and they were pretty much shit. I am completely lost in my multi variable calc class. I have been procrastinating to the max right now, and I am only managing to do average. It sucks, because if you did not know already my dad is pretty anal about me getting good grades. So all I can do is sigh and get myself back together. It is like climbing out of quicksand. You have to be smart about what you do, or else one false move and you are pretty much fucked.
On the other hand, I am working right now so some cash is coming in. I just need to be smart with money, just do other day I spent like 80 dollars in one day. Wtf. I remember back to my old days, when I would hustle like crazy and save my money. It seems I cant do that now. I remember last winter too, when I would work out like three times a day, and study like crazy. I was antisocial, but I was doing pretty good. Loneliness killed me at that time, but it seems like my disappointment is taking its toll this time. I have said this before, but the grass is always greener on the other side.
So, going back to the idea of my title, here is some of the knowledge I have gained through this quarter:
- Nothing worth having comes easy:
You can only take pride in hard work. Nothing impressive comes easy. Practice, discipline, dedication. With these features you can conquer anything.
- Intellect is the most attractive feature:
Although I am trapped by the social construct of attractiveness in the opposite sex, the feature of intelligence and wisdom appeals to me the most. As of now, I am attracted to this one girl who I can connect on a whole other plateau. Her mind is beautiful, and it drives me crazy.
- Happiness is only achieved collectively:
You cant be happy alone. You need to share with someone else, or a group of friends.
- Dont do nothin':
Keep yourself busy. Whether its school, friends, work, etc. Do not waste time, be productive, and most of all be happy with what you do. You never know if you will reach tomorrow.
- I will never be content with myself:
I do not know if this applies to anyone, but for me being content with life is impossible. When I do well in school, I feel like a loner. When I hang out with friends, I feel like a failure. I am always self conscious and never take pride in myself. I can only change myself and I know this. I guess what I am trying to say is, lol idk. Youth sucks.
- Do well in school:
Just do it. You might as well. It will benefit you in the future, and not as many people have this opportunity.
So I guess, just keep going on. If you are not happy with yourself, work harder and stop bitching like I am on this blog. You have to work hard to be happy. And I guess share your happiness with others. There is nothing more fulfilling to me than seeing other people happy because of my actions. Fuck the past too. Learn from your mistakes, learn how to win. Don't dwell in regret, its wasted energy. Move on.
I will try to. I hope you do too.
"You can make the future, but its starts with leaving the past"<-- I think I have blogged this before lol.
So things are looking too good right now. I am pretty broke, I havent lost any weight, and I am not doing to well in school. My midterms came back and they were pretty much shit. I am completely lost in my multi variable calc class. I have been procrastinating to the max right now, and I am only managing to do average. It sucks, because if you did not know already my dad is pretty anal about me getting good grades. So all I can do is sigh and get myself back together. It is like climbing out of quicksand. You have to be smart about what you do, or else one false move and you are pretty much fucked.
On the other hand, I am working right now so some cash is coming in. I just need to be smart with money, just do other day I spent like 80 dollars in one day. Wtf. I remember back to my old days, when I would hustle like crazy and save my money. It seems I cant do that now. I remember last winter too, when I would work out like three times a day, and study like crazy. I was antisocial, but I was doing pretty good. Loneliness killed me at that time, but it seems like my disappointment is taking its toll this time. I have said this before, but the grass is always greener on the other side.
So, going back to the idea of my title, here is some of the knowledge I have gained through this quarter:
- Nothing worth having comes easy:
You can only take pride in hard work. Nothing impressive comes easy. Practice, discipline, dedication. With these features you can conquer anything.
- Intellect is the most attractive feature:
Although I am trapped by the social construct of attractiveness in the opposite sex, the feature of intelligence and wisdom appeals to me the most. As of now, I am attracted to this one girl who I can connect on a whole other plateau. Her mind is beautiful, and it drives me crazy.
- Happiness is only achieved collectively:
You cant be happy alone. You need to share with someone else, or a group of friends.
- Dont do nothin':
Keep yourself busy. Whether its school, friends, work, etc. Do not waste time, be productive, and most of all be happy with what you do. You never know if you will reach tomorrow.
- I will never be content with myself:
I do not know if this applies to anyone, but for me being content with life is impossible. When I do well in school, I feel like a loner. When I hang out with friends, I feel like a failure. I am always self conscious and never take pride in myself. I can only change myself and I know this. I guess what I am trying to say is, lol idk. Youth sucks.
- Do well in school:
Just do it. You might as well. It will benefit you in the future, and not as many people have this opportunity.
So I guess, just keep going on. If you are not happy with yourself, work harder and stop bitching like I am on this blog. You have to work hard to be happy. And I guess share your happiness with others. There is nothing more fulfilling to me than seeing other people happy because of my actions. Fuck the past too. Learn from your mistakes, learn how to win. Don't dwell in regret, its wasted energy. Move on.
I will try to. I hope you do too.
"You can make the future, but its starts with leaving the past"<-- I think I have blogged this before lol.
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