So far....

Sorry I havent in a long while. I dont know I guess I did not have any work to procrastinate on, so I felt I did not need to write in here. But I will fill you up over what happened on Spring Break

Friday, March 20: Went home via Josh and Jake Tarquinio, went to a quick family dinner, then hung out with Greg, Zach, Jake, and Mack at the Lan Party, Norms, and the Spot. First visit to HTH in a LONG time. I was actually pretty nervous, but I only saw Mr. Chiou and Ms. Wooten, and only Mr. Chiou spoke to me. I do not know why this is such a big deal to me, going back to HTH and all. I guess I will just have to wait until June, when I plan to visit again and talk to teachers. I wonder why I am making this such a big thing, as if I have to impress my high school teachers. I guess I must really look up to them......Norms was pretty good, and some funny stuff happened at the Spot with Greg and Zach. Good times. There is also some significance to this night, maybe to my life. But thats for another post.

Saturday, March 21: Dont really know what happened that day, other than I just playing Resident Evil 5. Borrowed this from blockbuster, pretty good game. I think I watched a Laker game that day, but most of all just chilled.

Sunday, March 22: Woke up to a phone call from Greg, telling me to come to Salsa and Beer. I was pretty tired, but I thought that I heard that Aaron was there and wanted to chill. So I was like, alright cool why not. Went over, and to my suprise found Dylan! Really suprised to see him, was expecting Aaron (although he came which was cool). Met up with Zach and ate at jay in the bay and hit a Boba place. Then Greg and Aaron split and me and Zach went grocery shopping for healthy food LOL. Was actually pretty cool, learned some healthy tips from my homie. We went back to my house going to play RE5 when Greg, Dylan, and Aaron came back to chill and play some Rock Band. Then they split, and I tried to play through RE5 while Zach crashed my pad.

Monday, March 23: Do not really know what happened today either, other then getting to see Mr. Pezzi, MEK and Zach again. I think I played some RE5 and oh yah, I cooked food! Got a delicous meal plan from Zach and tried it out, delish. I think Im going to be doing a lot of this over summer. Hung out with Pezzi at Subway (Oh shoot Pezzi I owe you 6 bucks!), then went over to MEK's house to chill with him and Zach and youtubed it. Pretty funny shit that night. Youtube Demetri Martin, watch the "If I" skit. Fucking hilarious. Definitely worth one hour of your time.

Tuesday, March 24: Was supposed to get a root canal today, but got a call saying it wasnt going to happen. So I think I finished RE5 today and watched they Lakers win again. Basically chilled today.

Wednesday, March 25: Returned RE5 to blockbuster (fucking ripoff 10$ for 5 days), then I had to do some stuff for my car because I am taking it to SD. Then, I had to finally go to the dentist for a "root canal" which actually turned out to be a day one of a tooth filling. Fucking waste of a day.....I was actually supposed to go with Greg, Dylan, and Aaron to Disneyland. Man I am sorry you guys if I messed up your plans. I really appreciate you guys trying to go with me. Seriously.

Thursday, March 26: Continued doing some stuff for the car and finished day two of my tooth filling. Oh I actually got my grades back and to my suprise got an A (not an A-) in both Econ and Math. Really suprised, and cant believe I was able to pull it off. I feel that I could have studied more. Wow, sometimes sky is the limit. Oh also bought Xbox Live Gold for a year, and played Halo online

Friday, March 27: Fixed my dads computer, picked up my car from the shop, and went to Macks Lan Party. Had a pretty good time, played some tight games (lol peggle and online scrabble), and had some good food. Also saw Ben, Ethan, and Jared. Mack, if you read this, I definately appreciated your effort in doing this thing. Good job man.

Saturday, March 28: Hung out with my mom, went to target to get some supplies, watched I Love You Man (really good, worth watching in theatres), and now writing in this blog

Reflection: Basically, I had a talk with Greg, to see how people we knew are moving on with their lives. I think I should begin to do that with myself. Spring Quarter, have so many plans. Lets see what I want to do:
1. Hit 190 -195 lb range
2. Get 3.5 Gpa
3. Get some new friends
4. Get a job(s) for summer
5. Save at least 300$ for summer
6. Join a club/frat

I really think I need to move on with my life, try to do something new this quarter. Its going to take work, but I am going to put effort for this shit to happen.

This spring break, I looked back at my mom and dad. Man we have come so far, but got so far to go, I do not know what I have to do. I am worried for many reasons, but I guess thats for another blog.

I was supposed to work out everyday this week, but only managed to do it once. There are no excuses, BUT I did kind of get sick. Whatever, I was actually looking at me, and I guess I should be proud of myself. I could have easily been about 300 pounds right now, but im 220 right now. I am going to go for another run again, we will see how that goes. But for now, I will give a hand to myself for all my hard work, all the miles I ran, all the times I wanted to not work out, all the food and drinks I wanted to consume, all the pushups, squats, situps, etc. It was hard work, I have to agree. But now its time to move on and build on it. Thats what your boy will plan to do.

So now, its 227 am. I dont know whether to feel optimisic or pessimistic about the upcoming quarter. So im just taking a big sigh, and relaxing one last time before I have to continue on with life. Thanks Spring Break, really well needed.

"What tomorrow has in store we can never be sure"

one more final

I do not know how to feel about this test. I have had three days to study, but I feel that I did not do as much. We will see. Probably staying up late, just to make sure I know everything. The funny thing is, will I remember all this after a month? Am I just memorizing material? Am I actually learning? pshhh man.....whatever. That is how the system is. Fuck it. Need to get a job.

2 finals in 1 day + 2 hrs of sleep = TKO

im tired. im pretty sure i passes my sociology final because it was only pass/no pass (you need C at minimum). So its all good. I did not think the math final was too hard, I needed an A to get an A, and its possible I could have gotten it. But I always fuck up somewhere. I have an econ final on Friday, which is the only thing keeping me from Spring Break. Studying the next the next three days for it and I need an A so got to do it. I am tired, and I dont see the point of writing this. You guys dont get any wisdom from this except how my life is going. Sorry. Hope its entertaining.

Peace

sorry i failed

but who cares






/cry

apology

i need to write this fast because I want to start over at 12. I am fucking up. I have not been studying. I did not work out today. I went off diet. I have been basically doing nothing, fucking pointless shit. And now, all I do is rant on this blog. I could have been out making friends like everyone else in this college, but I confine myself to this room, saying that I need to study when I actually don't. And I just make shit worse. I could have done so much today, go out, work out, make friends, talk to people. But what did I do. Nothing. I have finals on Monday. It is 11:54. I am deciding to go off internet bullshit. I am going to start over tomorrow. Wake up at 7, work out, and study the whole day. I will stay off this blog, myspace, twitter, facebook. I will try. I need to. I need be more productive, instead of complaining and writing in this blog. So at 12, I will start. No more internet till after my 7pm final on Monday. I am sorry I am completely lame.

So I apologize. And I will start over. Maybe I should take a shower, you know how showers represent a new life. Idk, I will do heads or tails. Shit its 11:58. Heads I shower, tails i dont. I NEED A FUCKING PENNY........................TAILS SHIT. whatever. I am going to work. Try. I am sorry. This is me procastinating at my best. I'm off.

addiction

not looking good right now. I should be studying but thats not happening. I just do not have the power to do it right now. I don't have the determination to do what I need to do. It is hard.

I want food too. I am not hungry, I am just dying for the taste of terrible food to satisfy my dissapointment and bad mood.

I cannot fail though. I must do what I need to do. I cannot fail. I cannot fail. I cannot fail. I cannot fail. I cannot fail. I cannot fail. I cannot fail. I cannot fail. I cannot fail. I cannot fail. I cannot fail. I cannot fail. I cannot fail. I cannot fail. I cannot fail. I cannot fail. I cannot fail. I cannot fail. I cannot fail. I cannot fail. I cannot fail. I cannot fail. I cannot fail. I cannot fail. I cannot fail. I cannot fail. I cannot fail.

I did not just copy/paste that.

Need to get it together. jdsaloknhgki8ufrgaguihafiughdainvfadbgdvflbdubdibvisdlfBHVDSFAUBVHGUFDAVIUDSVFDSVBFDISBVFUCK!

going to finally show this blog i guess

finally letting this out for the public to see. I do not even know why I did this in the first place. Whatever. I hope you guys reading my bull shit can help you with your life. I actually enjoy reading blogs, so if you do not have one, I suggest making one. I promise to read everyday. Also, please do not think I am weird/crazy for the shit I write, and comment whenever you please. Only giving this to people I am close to, so if you get this be happy!

long time no post

yah so havent posted recently, just busy and have not been motivated to do it. but something in me today made me want to blog.

Finals are coming up. I am scared. I need to ace two of them and pass another. I made an effort to study as much as I can but like always I am procrastinating by going on facebook, twitter, etc. or just dazing off. Fuck. I will try to do all I can. Some good news: I got full credit from a math quiz for an A. Maybe its a sign to not stop all the work I am doing. Shit I'll take it.

Just watched Watchmen and went home this last weekend. It was worth the money. Some people I saw it with did not like it, I could see why, but I mean I thought the movie was good. I need to see it again though just to understand it lol.

As far as my diet, I have been hovering around the same weight range for about a month already. At least I am not getting fatter right? I am trying to make a push this week and the next two to get to 200 lbs before the start of spring qtr. So far for three days I have been diligent. I guess thats good. I set my usual-I-do-not-give-a-fuck-eat-like-crazy-day for a feast I am planning at Mike EK's house first day of spring break.

My friend Mack says hes certain he can hook me up with a job this summer, which is awesome. I hope it actually happens.

I am thinking of bringing my car down for spring qtr so I can get to the valley quicker, anytime I choose to. Cost-Benefit (Econ lol) wise its worth it, just as long as gas is still pretty low. That way I can chill with friends too without going home. (sidenote: I am sorry to my peeps for being so anal about going home whenever we hang out. My parents care about my safety, most likely because they love me, and they lost one child already. Its hard for them to be loose about my wherabouts because they dont want me to lose me as well :/ )

I am thinking of joining a Frat next qtr. I just feel it would be good to make some friends and connections for job oppurtunities. I will have to rush though, and I need to impress them to get in, which will be hard for me to do. I am trying to lose more weight so that I will have confidence to be who I really am, which I think is good. I hope my grades do not fuck up for doing this.

Lakers are not playing good :/. whats up with all the slack? I am making an effort not to watch because I waste time if they lose. Hope they break the funk

Resident Evil 5 comes out soon. My spring break is going to fun.

1:50am right now. Have to wake up for a 8:00 am lecture tomorrow, which means waking up at 7:00 am to shower and eat. ugh.

Im out

work work work

man how do you stay diligent its fucking hard. only robots can do this